Fires are burning outside and inside. January has brought many trials and tribulations to the body, mind and spirit. So many things are pulling at us, trying to hold us down, and prevent us from floating upwards to the light. The suffering is real. How do we navigate this?
(image by Agnes Haus)
The simple answer for me is art. Art in all of its forms. Creative energy. For me, I simply must keep pushing outward into the stars, travelling with the speed of light with all the force of the Big Bang. I feel in my bones that there is simply no other way for me to survive this new paradigm. There are so many terrible things going on in our world and it is heartbreaking to watch how a few lost souls can wield such abhorrent power over others. Their power of persuasion is frightful. It repulses me to the core of my being. The tenebrous shadow being cast has sent my gaze hurtling upwards to the skies. I am slowly becoming a novice Nephrologist, Astronomist or better still, Astrologist, or simply just a Mystic as there must be a greater meaning to all of what is happening right now. I want hope. We all need hope. For me, hope has become a violent desire churning deep inside my whole being, longing for the light of our stars.
(image by Agnes Haus)
Last week I released my third single, ‘Red Dove’, from my forthcoming album, ‘A Requiem’. The timing for this single felt uncanny. The song was inspired by an armageddon dream where the world was burning and I turned and looked to see a solitary boy holding a red dove. I awoke and wrote it down. Who did the boy represent? What did the red dove mean? In time it grew into a song and the key lyric “wash it down with violent hope” which now feels somewhat precognitive. Around the same time Werner Herzog’s “Bells From The Deep” appeared in my world. The investigation of Russian mysticism and the individuals in this documentary were haunting my mind, colliding with the eerie dream images of Red Dove. I instantly knew that the sorcerer and his followers were exactly what I wanted to pay homage to in the video for the song. Then came bringing all of my madcap ideas to the table with Agnes Haus who (thankfully) deeply understands how my brain operates and together we created the video for Red Dove.
The Red Dove “a-hah” moment came from a deep dive inside my mind. Dreams and reality had collided. It was that moment when the big fish came to the surface.
(image by Agnes Haus)
And as the late and eternally great David Lynch said:
“Ideas are like fish. If you want to catch little fish, you can stay in the shallow water. But if you want to catch the big fish, you've got to go deeper. Down deep, the fish are more powerful and more pure.”
(image by Agnes Haus)
Before time slips, I must express a belated response to the passing of our dear David Lynch. For 13 days I have been processing the impact he had on my life and so many of my friends and family across the world. Watching the torrent of love pour out across social media from those who knew him closely, who worked with him, and who were inspired by him has been profoundly beautiful. All of his knowledge & experience within his creative life, the information he shared on how to navigate the highs and lows, dominated my social media feed and took me away from the dire state of politics. Even in death, he is a blessing! His passing has demonstrated that he is indeed still the maestro of shadow and light. From the other side, he is still encouraging us all to work through it and to look to the light! It’s extraordinary that his death is showing us some perfect lessons that we all need right now. With a very wary eye on politics and other headlines, I refuse to let them take my focus away from my work, my mission and my love for this life.
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The last note that I must make about Lynch and ‘Red Dove’ and all of its violent hope is the ultimate gift that Lynch shared with us that can be our tool, our weapon, to navigate the armageddon… Meditation. It wasn’t a secret that Lynch was a meditator. He had been a public spokesperson for the practice for many years. Personally, I have gone in and out of this practice over the years. Life has always been doing a good job of distracting me. But I am now coming to a point in my life where I feel that meditation is exactly what I have been needing all along. I have a busy mind. The world has become a manifestation of this. Some mornings when the coffee kicks in I feel like I have a million ideas all bubbling to the surface at once, making my “to-do lists” a bit manic some days. I work fast and furiously from coffee to afternoon tea. Then everything gets caught up in and of itself. Thankfully many objectives are achieved but there’s always a slight sense of burnout. My afternoons are an elusive time for work. I now realise that this is my point to pause, reflect, breathe, calm down and get outside of my mind. I stop being busy and I stop being “I”… a quiet meditation after lunch to come to terms with letting go, surrendering to that moment and realising that there is so much beyond me and my immediate world. I begin to realise that all that busy work is for this moment when ‘I’ fall away and let go. It is a pure gift when I realise that everything I am doing is actually for everyone.
With violent hope, may our collective consciousness be focused on peace, love and happiness for everyone…. Everyone…
And lastly I want to leave you with this profound excerpt from Guerillere Talks by Vivienne Dick from 1978… we too can all stand with this young woman’s passion for life!
“I want… my whole life to… I want to empty my whole life in front of everybody so it gets out of my body, I want, I want to explode it. “
Beautiful song/video and well written, Miss Trappes.
This is a compelling read. Thank you for your thoughts.